So, yesterday I met with Steph for smoothies, after her trip to Indiana and we got to talking about school, careers, families, etc. It got me thinking.. She’s got her shit together like whoa.. I on the other hand do not have a college degree and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. I mean it’s not like I have never been to college or anything. I’ve got credits in some of the most random classes but it’s because I can never make up my mind. I started going for Art, then it switched to Vet, then it switched to Cardio-Thoracic Surgeon.. and now I’m doing accounting at a random company while still working for LifeWay (a non-profit drug rehab program)
It’s not that I feel like I haven’t done anything with my life, it’s just that I want to do something… important. I want to have a passion for something and be certain about it. (i.e. Steph and her interior design)
All the things I want to be:
Artist
Vet
Surgeon
Graphic Designer
Game Designer
Drug Counselor (with a PhD)
Marine Biologist
Architect
..and I think that’s it for right now..
See there’s my problem. I want to do like 100 things at once and I know that I can’t. I know that I would be happy with any one of those things. I know that I could make some sort of living with any one of those things… well besides the artist, that may have to just be a hobby BUT my dilemma is still that I cannot choose. There are pro’s and con’s to every single one of those. I almost just want to pull one out of a hat and that’ll just be the thing I choose to go back to school for. I’ve been thinking about this for a long time and it’s frustrating because the longer I can’t make up my mind the longer I’m stuck in limbo land… Limbo land includes working WAY too hard for NOT enough money.. and by not enough money I mean I literally get paid shit, not like I get paid alright and I could be making more so I complain about it kind of thing.
*stressed*
Hopefully something will happen that is like a bright neon sign that points me in the right direction because I am terrified of making a wrong decision and wasting thousands of dollars on something that I figure out (later on) I don’t want to do for the rest of my life..